#and i often forget that as soon as i hit upload T_T

[ottororin]

rewatching my own videos to remind myself why i make them in the first place~!

(long post)

so it's 0:32, and i've been feeling rather burnt out and unhappy lately, so i'm gonna watch some of my own youtube videos and (in no particular order) tell you what i like and like about them :)

1. ONE COLOR, ONE SONG DRAWING CHALLENGE

i usually avoid watching this one because it embarrasses me so hard that the audio issue in this video had SUCH an easy fix, and yet i didn't bother to check it until my mom pointed it out like ...several months later. but i watched it again tonight and realized just how fucking funny i was in this. usually, my videos are 40% script 60% improv (not on purpose, but sometimes that's just how the videos turn out), but with this video, the improvised parts were so intentional and hit just right. from the intro all the way through the calls-to-action portion of the video (which i normally hate doing)

so yeah, minus the audio issue, i can appreciate that this is probably--in my opinion--one of my better videos!

the drawing is super cute, probably one of my prettiest, the story is adorable and relatable (if not cliche), and i put a surprising amount of animation into this video too!

2. Styling ATARASHII GAKKO! like K-pop Groups | Suzuka and Kanon

why do i sound so smart in this video??? fshasjfk like. it's good, it's well-structured, well-worded, crispily-delivered, well-edited. the pacing felt really nice. my only critique would be that maybe i seem to be lacking that "Dumb Bitch Charisma" that i usually bring to the table. you can tell— or at least I can tell— that i'm doing a mina le/safiya nygaard impression in this video, and it's really throwing me off ajsmmemdw

i barely recognize myself in this facecam era, mostly because it needs so much planning, and maybe i'm not As Natural on camera...either that or my face isn't as expressive as my voice. unsure.

3. Drawing myself into my favorite shows!!

this video is so cringe, but there's a reason why this was my "homepage" video for so long. it just felt like the best video to introduce people to me: it's so sincere, it's so true to my humor, and the video concept in itself just strikes the balance between "BIG IPs" that the general public should be familiar with, and ME. like, what to expect from my videos going forward:

cold open

the accidental in-universe admission that i don't post as regularly as i would like to

the musical intro

the on-the-spot, but intricate storytelling

the animation

the giggle in my voice

i sound really happy in this video, which i don't actually remember being--this happy in real life at the time of recording.

making this video, was when i first started working for drawfee -- so i got a lot of new viewers on this, if i remember right... for that reason, it holds a lot of memories for me.